dealing with feelings

this year I’ve been learning how to feel, “feel” better

letting my feelings marinate, for a lack of a better word

I used to avoid feeling hurt

I sometimes get embarrassed by having feelings that I didn’t want to have

“no, don’t get hurt by that”

“that’s embarrassing… no”

“are you really crying over that?”

but then I realized, stopping myself from feeling a certain way,

won’t make the feelings go away

also, telling myself off didn’t feel so good

so I let those feelings linger

I let those feelings be with me

sometimes they leave as quickly as they come

sometimes they stay for a day or two

it can feel horrible at times

but i try to be kind

i try to make them my friend

usually, things get better

because in the end, those feelings are a part of me